As much as I desire to meet alone with God and pray, God desires to meet with me like a loving parent longs to connect with their children. Henri Nouwen writes:
"God wants us more than we want God."
- Henri Nouwen, The Only Necessary Thing: Living a Prayerful Life, 30
Who wants to be heard the most - us or God? The answer is: God.
Who grieves more over our lack of praying - us or God? Answer: God.
Nouwen quotes Anthony Bloom:
"We complain that God does not make Himself present to us for the few minutes we reserve for Him, but what about the twenty-three-and-a-half hours during which God may be knocking at our door and we answer ‘I am busy, I am sorry.’ Or when we do not answer at all because we do not hear the knock at the door of our heart, of our mind, of our conscience. So there is a situation in which we have no right to complain of the absence of God, because we are a great deal more absent than He ever is.” (In Ib.)
Whenever there is an "in absentia" situation, it is us, and not God. God is never absent.
I am going to take time today and go to a quiet place, just me and God. We will meet together. God's gladness will far surpass mine.