Friday, September 19, 2014

Praying to Be Purged of False Identity (PrayerLife)


Outer quietude reveals inner restlessness. Who am I, when I have nothing to do?

Solitude and aloneness are revelatory fires that uncover my true self and what I am defined by. If I am defined by the praises and blame of others then when those voices are removed, so is my identity. When my "being" is defined by my "doing" or "having" I have gotten life backwards.
Train in Monroe County

For these reasons solitude is required to purge my heart of false identities and forge my heart's true meaning and purpose. Henri Nouwen writes: "Silence and solitude call me to detach myself from the scaffolding of daily life and to discover if anything there can stand on its own when the traditional support systems have been pulled away." (Nouwen, Our Greatest Gift: A Meditation on Dying and Caring, p. 3)

When the music fades, when all is stripped away, and "I" simply come to God, then it's Him and me here now. Just me and my God Who is my source of life and is my life. 

When I am restless when alone with God I pray like this: "Restore my soul, O God, that has been layered over by the false gods of doing and having and accomplishing."