|Del & Linda|
Linda's mother suffered from Alzheimer's Disease for many years. This horrible illness caused her to slowly lose her memory. One result of her memory loss was an increase of fear.
One afternoon Linda, her mother Martha, her father Del, and I were shopping in a mall. At one point Linda and Del left for an hour to shop together while I stayed with Martha. We sat together for a minute and then she looked at me, her eyes filled with panic, and asked "Where's Del?!"
"He's shopping with Linda. He'll be right back," I responded.
This put Martha at ease. But only for a few minutes. Forgetting what I had just said, Martha looked at me again and asked, "Where's Del?"
"He's with Linda. He'll be right back."
This happened several times in an hour, with Martha forgetting, me reminding her, she calming down, then forgetting and filled with fear, asking "Where's Del?", and me reminding her again. Martha not only had forgotten what I said to her, but she had forgotten a more basic truth, which was: in Del she had a husband who would never, ever leave her or forsake her. He was always by her side, Alzheimer's or not.
There is a "spiritual Alzheimer's disease" which results in forgetting the many times God has rescued and delivered us, provided for us, and been with us. Such forgetting breeds fear. The more one forgets the deeds of God in one's own life, the more one becomes fearful in the present moment.
The antidote to this is: remembering.
"Remembering" is huge in the Old Testament. The post-Exodus experience of Israel is grounded in remembtance. The Jewish festivals are remember-events, such as Passover, when the head of the household sits with his family and asks, "Why is this night different from all other nights?" In response the past is recounted, how God delivered their people out of bondage in Egypt. This remembering, which reminds them of God's past faithfulness, brings fresh hope.
My spiritual journal functions as the written memory of the voice and deeds of God in my life. I take time every year to re-ponder my journals. In doing so I remember what God has done for me, how he has delivered me from bondage, and how he answered many prayers. I re-read of past times when I was afraid, or worried, and then re-read how God came through and my worry dissipated.
I do not, I will not, forget the deeds of the Lord in my life. The spiritual discipline of remembering brings renewed hope in the present, defeating the onset of spiritual Alzheimer's disease.